To hive or not to hive

So much has happened these past few weeks. Considering how I tend to break out in hives, I'm very surprised that I've managed to return to my natural complexion by now.

First things first: my St. John's Grad School Interview. First of all, there were only about 11 of us and it was extremely competitive. When it was my turn to speak, I think I stuttered some of my words like ththth that. Whatever, if I get in I get in, right? I think I turned a lovely shade of red but have mastered the art of wearing shirts that cover me up nicely during these occasions :)

My second grad school interview at Queens College turned out much better (I think). I was more prepared and stood out. I had mentioned my experience with cancer patients and people affected by cancer as well as being bilingual. The interviewers/school counselors seemed more easy going. I have a better feeling about this one...

Hmm what else. Oh yes. I've decided to apply to another school and am in the midst of that as well.

I hope I get in somewhere and honestly pray that this is the job for me. Grad school seems hard and I hope this pays off. I'm just busy waiting waiting waiting.

I'm betting on God

For Easter this season, I thought I would go back to my old school notes and share what convinced that it's worth believing in God. It may be hard to comprehend, but it's interesting :)

This is taken from my metaphysics philosophy notes:

Pascal's Wager
3 stances toward a statement

1.  belief- argument, affirmation--> theist
2. disbelief- denial, rejection--> atheist
3. nonbelief- no commitment, without judgment--> agnostic

Pascal was a theist. He had some advice for his agnostic friends. If one makes a sincere effort, then one will see that God exists. If you are still in denial, then you must take a risk. You have to set out time.

betting on God
~living as if God exists
~ praying (or trying to), reading what others say inspires them, reflecting about God, being concerned, etc....
betting on atheism
~ being indifferent
~ living as if God does not exist

how should you choose?
Factors involved in any betting situation:
- probability: likelihood that what you bet on will win.
- payoff: what you get if you win
- cost: what you pay up front to make the bet.

Pascal's two assumptions:
1. If God does not exist, there is no afterlife.
2. If God exists, seeking God leads to eternal fulfillment and happiness.

Satisfaction/dissatisfaction guarantees:

For betting on God-
Satisfaction guarantee- if you bet on God and you're right, you will experience the satisfaction of realizing you made the right choice (heaven, etc)

No satisfaction guarantee- if you bet on God and you're wrong, you will never experience thedissatisfaction at realizing you made the wrong choice.

For betting on Atheism-
No Satisfaction guarantee- if you bet on atheism and you're right, you will never experience the satisfaction at realizing you made the right choice.

Dissatisfaction guarantee- if you bet on atheism and you lose, you will always experience the dissatisfaction of realizing you made the wrong choice.

In essence:
- if you bet on God, you will only know you made the right choice.
- if you bet on atheism, you experience nothing or dissatisfaction.

Oh boy

Is it so wrong that I am a woman and deserve to be treated like a lady? A lady needs love, attention, flowers every once in a while, heart felt cards... She especially needs to know that she will always come first...      


Love isn't love unless it is expressed;
caring isn't caring unless the other person knows;
sharing isn't sharing unless the other person is included;

Aries Woman & Capricorn Man

This match can work, but it will take a lot of hard work. You and Capricorn would seem to be complete opposites. He is practical and serious; you are spontaneous and fun-loving. He is slow to share his thoughts and feelings; you find it easy to say what you think. Even with these differences, however, a strong love can grow between an Aries girl and a Capricorn boy. It’s just that it will take a really, really long time and a lot of patience for things to get on stable ground. He’s not the easiest bet for a soulmate, but a long-term love match with this guy is not impossible to pull off. If you’re willing to work really hard, you can make it work with a Capricorn boy. (Source: Jellybean's Astro-Soulmate Guide )

Your Capricorn bf is all about making his mark on the world, and his aspirations are pretty big.  Together, you can be a force of nature, because you have the grit to inspire him.  Just keep in mind that sometimes, he may be focused on a school project or another duty—and his lack of attention is not about blowing you off.  This combination can be pure gold if you both understand where the other person is coming from.