Tough Week

It's only Tuesday and it's a tough week already. Yesterday I found out that my friend from college (21 yrs) was in the hospital after getting severe cramps in her abdomen. Doctors had discovered that she had had a cyst on her ovary which ruptured. She is fine now thank God.

Today I found out that a classmate from my high school in my year had died on Friday. I do not know how or why and am curious.

Since my father's death, I ache to feel connected and be emotionally secure. I question what people say to me and feel that after being with me, they will go back to their happy and better lives without me. My life still feels toppled over like a game of jenga.  I wonder how and when I will feel secure?