Friday, September 29, 2006

Picture

No, not the tears again.

But they came, as I knew they were bound to do.

Looking at old pictures can make one happy or sad...long for that moment or being glad that there's the present. Well today I decided to look inside my coffee table drawer where I came upon pictures of Summer 2005. It was a great summer, probably the best I ever had, looking at it now. My dad, mom, and I went to Germany, Spain and Poland and it was terrific.

There's my dad with a glimpse of a smile that he never shows. It is him and a kitten inside his shirt pocket. 8 months before he would be diagnosed. If I had a scanner I would show you. The contrast is incredible.

Tears flowed before I could stop them, before I could realize that its only a picture.

My dad is back in the hospital having a blood transfusion.

And I only wish he could be that guy in the picture: blissful and ignorant of a pain that can cause so much suffering...

2 comments:

xxroxymamaxx said...

The pictures make me cry too Joanna.  Thank God that you have them though.  Prayers for your dad and family.  Hugs and GBU, Shelly

pennietoonz said...

Hi again...been a while since I have visited your journal. I deleted Penny`s Place and started a new one. Anyhow, I wanted to stop by and see how you were doing and how your dad is. I know you`re sad. I`m sorry your dad (and you and your family) are going through this.
Love and hugs,
Penny